Wednesday, July 19, 2006
WHY MUST THE GOOD ALWAYS HAVE TO SUFFFER?
this is my title-which you cannot see, but im showin ya-WHY MUST THE GOOD ALWAYS HAVE TO SUFFFER???????
LIFE.IS.NOT.FAIR.NO,NOT.FAIR.
of all things, ms chiam has ta GO AND RUB IT IN MA FACE THAT I AINT GOT TICKETS TO TONIGHT'S SHOW!!! AS IN W.T.H? im wayyyyy pissed. in case you were wondering, she didnt DIRECTLY rub it in my face. she did it very, very, subtly by getting an MC today & THEN CANCELLED DANCE TODAY & NOW HERE I AM-UNABLE TO GO TO SINGAPORE IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whyyyyyy??????? *whines* arghhh, so today is NOT A HAPPY DAY. as in WTH AGAIN.
yeah. i know it's not enough of ranting, but yeah, heck. i'll continue later when ive got more inspiration. anyway, today went to school earlier, reason too hard to explain. then, lessons were okay. d&t was good, but like, i STILL have a lot to do. also, the isometric test was good. hopefully, ill pass it. but, i finished at 10. we started at 9.45am & had 30 minutes to complete the test. yeah, & i was reallll bored after checking my drawing. and i drew the SAME object FROM a different angle. looked corny, but, hey, IT WAS CUTE! spent 10 minutes drawing it. then, i rechecked my test paper & i started drawing people on my other sheet. i've made it into an ULTIMATELY COOL PICTURE of a shooping mall in ANGELINE LAND! SOOOOOO adorable (ok, fine. sorry for making this like ben's blog. but, this is the only way to express my self-lol)
LOOOOOVED the recess cos we hAD 55 MINUTES TO OURSELVES. the com lab was was filled with beiyi, nicole & i. SUPER COOL HUH? TOTALLLLY ROCKS! attempted to do a banner, but im not done with it yet. will put it up under my tag section for y'all to see/click it! of course i need beiyi & nicole superior flash skills ta help meh. yeah, had the class help me with eating potato chips for my pulp fashion dress. LOADS of thanks to yibo for keeping the lays packet intact. somewhat thanks to the class for finishing majority of the chachos & cheezels. i still gotta thank em even though the packet ENDED UP TORN. oh & thanks to tas & ting wei for allowing me to use the class fund to buy these stuff. WAHA. yeah, then after school g.nat & ruth had this discussion outside of our class about whether there was dance today. while mr yap was taking his slow time talking. THANKFULLY, there were other people miling around outside & mr yap wasnt paying attention. if not........their fate remains to be....... YEAH, ANYWAY, so ruth & i was like, "so, how? stay back or dont stay back?" yeahyeah, i know, my spoken english is detiorating & i AM working harder to make sure that THAT'S my best part for english. next up will be expressing myself clearer & finally written english *cough* so yeah. and urm, we decided to go to video world to eat our usual wednesday cup noodles. with uth reminding me to "keep our eyes peeled for seniors or juniors". flump dee dlump.went to video world, & saw zen (sorry, dunno how to spell her full name) there. so, we asked her & she sms-ed ms chiam. AND WE FOUND OUT THERE WAS NO DANCE. obviously if i was in the right state of mind (oh & maybe if i REALLY had tickets to the singapore idol show), then i would've been REEEAAALLL happy. probably would be screaming & dancing around crazily- IN MY HEAD. DUH. BUT I DIDNT HAVE TICKETS, SO I WAS REAL PISSED. you can tell i secretly hoped for dance so that there was an excuse for me to tell myself that "it was okay. dance ended late, so you really cant go to Singapore Idol. relax, angeline" HUH. (oh yeah, for the uninformed, i TALK TO MYSELF. it is not a freaky thing. as you can see, it is a PEP TALK. happy?) yeah, but i have noexcuse now. and i am currently wallowing in my misery. *wallow, wallow* oh & another thing that was pathetic. there were some sec 1 (cant be sec 2, IF NOT I WOULD LAUGH MY BRAINS OUT OF MY SKULL- they were shorter than us.) guys from TKSS. were total lameass freaks. and it was like, there were talking super loud, actin lameass & pathetic. sorry im repeating myself. but there are no words to describe these super lameass pathetic shits. anyway, like, it's not my fault if you wanna sit down AND dont ask me properly, considering that there was no space left in the table. oh, and either it was their first time there or they are just plain stupid, cos they didnt even think that you can move the table. the auntie had to come over to tell them. HOW LAMEASSLY STUPID, NO? yeah. when , I was finally done (ruth eats faster than me. also couldnt help that i was reading a magazine-which slowed down the whole eating process), one of them losers was like, "oh, FINALLY the losers are gone" dunno if it was meant for me to hear, but i didnt care. who wants to speak to freaks anyway? IM probably smarter than them. not trying to be mean, but i DID get 2-5-something for my PSLE. NO DUH. yeah. but (reallllly) BY ACCIDENT, i accidentally kicked one of the boys in the back when i was trying to get out. ACCIDENTALLY, ok. anyway, it wasnt my fault that they were blocking the small way from the tables to the shop area (dunno how to describe, but it's that part where they sell the stuff). so, TOO BAD, BOY. honestly. *shakes head* oh, i forgot to mention, they were also being racist. laughing at a picture of a (as quoted by them) "negro guy". REALLY? do they think (as malays) that they are so GREAT? tsktsk. anyway,
1) you shoudlnt be laughing meanly at other people
2)dont call an african american "negro"-IT'S MEAN. it's nicer to use african american or black. see? sounds nicer huh? those boys-TSKTSK. *shakes head*
anyway, back to ranting. so i feel asleep on the couch at home. was really tired. and i dreamt that i was at parkway & then nicole suddenly called me saying something about singapore idol. next thing i know, there's a cab appearing in front of me & nicole dragging me in. next to her (in the cab) was this girl with a cute hairstyle. those lovely, wavy curls. dunno who she was, but i assumed she was nicole's neighbour. then, i started getting worried, cos i hadnt told my mum where i was going. & i called my mum. this is the conversation that follows:
me: mum, have you allowed me to go to singapore idol today?
mum: huh? when did that happen?
nicole: (interrupting) i thought you asked your mum already?
me: no... crap, that means, i have to go home.
and suddenly, i appeared at home. my mum is looking at me in a weird kind of way & i start whining about not being able to watch the show. after this, it's all foggy-cant remember what happened. then, i woke up. hurmph. and the suckky reality hit me again & i totally decided to start blogging.
yeah. hurmph. IT'S NOT FAIR. God's UNFAIR. ok, so i shoudlnt be blaming Him, but He KNEW i wouldnt have dance today, so why didnt he let my mum let me go to singapore idol, so that i can get more happy signatures. BLEARGGGGHHHH! yeah, but i guess he doesnt want me to start "idol worshipping". yeahyeah. HURMPH.
and now, i am sitting here unhappily staring at the computer screen unhappily typing away. cantstandit. and now, before my mother kills me further, i shall leave this post on a happy note. :)
LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
toodle-ooos
Written at 5:53 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
random blechs
NEWSFLASH: ANGELINE HAS GOT DEVELOPING EYEBAGS. EVERYONE, RUN FOR YER LIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!! before you see the gross-ness of it alllll... ARRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!! ok, i will stop acting like this is ben's blog with all the caps & exclamation marks. flumph deee dlump.
haha. i'd just read the youth blog & it turns out, I'M the queen of BIMBO land. WAHAHAHAHA. SUPER SIAOW! *does crazy action* im still trying to get over the shock. i SERIOUSLY thought that cheryl was gonna call herself the queen. SUPER SIAOW! must stop laughing. am gonna write random stuff that comes to my mind cos i want to update my blog & dont know what to write, so LAAAA DEEEEE LAAAAA.
kind of still depressed from staurday. it was a sad day. oh & from this point onwards till the end of this para, if you hate blogs without substance, i would kindly ask you to skip to the next, next para so as to not die of blogless-substance. ANYWAY, saturday actually started out ok. went to tj for the ip open house. sure, i came late, but then i guess we didnt have to stay so long. well, yeah, maybe the time we stayed there was cool. we saw the electives & had the talk. which was good, in a sense, that i know a bit more about the ip there. yeah, the student lounge is also pretty cool. it's an SBS bus donated by the same company to tj. really nice. the people in there were very friendly & nice. :) yeah, so then we rushed to parkway for the signing session with the Singapore Idols. (my mum is complaining about how i went "idol mad" after watching Singapore Idol live on wednesday-still have yet to finish that post ahem.) yeah, so when we went, the line was almost fulll & when we wanted to join, the security guard was all huffy & said, "only got poster then can join" & this other woman with dyed-red hair said, "we're closing the line here". UGH, I MEAN, JUST MISSED!!! WHAT SORTA CRAP IS THAT? yeah so maybe i should have bought a poster, but also, WE JUST MISSED QUEUEING IN THE LINE. utter sad-ness huh? i was all pissed, cos we took forever to jay-walk across the road, then this idiot with her "Big Day Out" shirt came & asked niks and i to do some lame-o loser survey. all of this added up to my MISSING THE QUEUE & NOT BEING ABLE TO GET THE AUTOGRAPHS (yeah, yeah, i've already got Paul, Jonathan, Gayle & Joakim's signature from wednesday, but wouldnt it be nice if i had something proper for them to sign on, rather than have em sign in my horridly small notebook?) so i was DEAD PISSED. we went to macers for lunch & i was crushing & ripping up that stupid flyer of a "Big Day Out" DAMN, IT'S NOT FAIR. i mean, UGH. yeah, so went back to parkway after that & watche dthe Singapore Idols coming in. and them giving away free gifts to dudes who will later on be getting their poster signed. (the "Idols" signed a singapore idol bag & 12 people won that & 6 tickets each.) HURMPH. yeah, after exhausting my leg by tip-toeing half the time to take about 7 million videos of what happened there, they "let us in". not to get autographs, but to take group shots & yeah, shake whichever idol's hand. i shook Joakim, Jasmine & Paul's hands. ok, so those were the only ones there who stuck their hand out for shaking, so yeah. idol mad. blahblah. yeah, but it was REAL DISAPPOINTING. like, i would've stayed at tj for a while longer then. HURMPHH. yeah, so PLEASE DONT MENTION "SILVER MARKER" IN FRONT OF ME. it vill bring back painvul memories for me..... so, anyway, since i missed this crap of an autograph session, i SHOULD'VE been allowed to go to Singapore Idol again this week right? but, NOOOOO, my mum REFUSEDDD. all who think my life is sad, in a pathetic kind of substance-less way, breathe. so, im like getting depressed here. oh & forgot to mention, niks went back to my house after that to TRY to finish the pulp fashion project, but we ended up turning the skirt into a CAPE. lame. but i have one KICKASS catwalk. its gonna OOOOOSE with ATTITUDE. uh-huh. *smirks* (kinda hafta stop talking like that. it's a squared [beiyi] thing. sorry girl, but i cant afford to have my SPOKEN english detiorate, like my written english is currently. detiorating. i have no idea how to spell) ANYWAY, im like wallowing in my depression-sadness. it's not fair. ok, fine the main problem being- I. LIKE. PAUL. TWOHILL. it happened BY ACCIDENT, OK? ACCIDENT. i kind of only liked joakim at first, will not further explain, and ten when paul twohill signed my book, i kinda started, urm, liking him. YEARGH. why must this happen to me. must i be so loser as to have to suffer this torture???? why???????? yeah, if you have any idea to make me STOP liking him, tell me. i would GLADLY APPRECIATE IT. seriously. *stones* oh, AND PLEASE DONT MENTION "MEDIACORP, THOMSON ROAD AND SINGAPORE IDOL". yes, painful memories...so, here i am, trying to think, WHY IS GOD NOT LETTING ME GO TO SINGAPORE IDOL, HAVE A POSTER SIGNED BY THE FINAL 11? but yeah, God has His reasons and i will have no choice but to respect it. even though i aint to happy about it. HURMPH. life is sad. yeah, now to more funny stuff. substance, i dunno, but it'll be funny. uncle meng kim was telling me on sunday that he was searching for his name (dunno when, but OBVIOUSLY NOT ON SUNDAY. clearly, me being lame) & he said that i mentioned his name twice on this blog. ok, lemme give some foundation. so, he was searching his name via Google, to see if kim (his daughter) mentioned him on her blog. so, up popped up my blog FROM the search engine. freakkyy huh? i know i mentioned him once. but he said that i mentioned him twice. interesting huh? but, it's like, scary that my blog can pop up alongside other webbys. anyway, just to update-NO he didnt find kim's blog. but he can find it from somewhere PRETTY obvious. under my links. some blogs MAY lead him there though. wont mention names, but yeah. *eeevil grin* so, today we were let off from school early cos of some O levels thing. on one hand, i hear it's oral, on another hand, i hear it's listening. who cares, cos WE GOT ONE PERIOD OFF!!! HAD NO CHEENA LESSONS TODAY. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. so happy. beiyi & niks came over to AGAIN try to finish up the skirt for the pulp fashion thing. AGAIN WE HAVE NOT finished. how lame. wont mention anymore, cos im too lazy. let's just say the skirt is one third done. too complicated to get into the teeny-tiny deets. im actually supposed to study now. for my science CA tomorrow, WHICH i hear it's 70% of our marks. but i actually came here to blog while my 'rents are off at a wake. so, i gotta log off soon before they come back to see me blogging and then kill me....fine me....scold me..... YOU get the idea. so, i'll try to finish my singapore idol experience tomorrow, and i gotta go now. toodles~
Written at 10:02 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006
life sucks & i know it.
just had roller-blading and as usual the stuff there STINKS LIKE SHIT. fine, sweat. *rolls eyes* anyway, friday night/ saturday morning (lemme tell you-the morning starts when i say it starts) anyway. back to friday night/saturday morning. i was like on the com after my bro. i'd just meant to do my dailies & when i'd finished that, i just totally didnt want to log off, so y'know what? i was like totally flopping around all the kpc-ians linked to ma blog. SO FUN MANIA! i was reading all their posts-YES ALL-and i tagged most. except ben (cos i couldnt find) & marianne's (cos i didnt know what to say). it WAS TOTALLLYYYY coool. lol. but yeah, after that, my parents came down at 2:56am & totallly killed me. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. (you get an idea of what time i slept huh?)
saturday was ok. went for YLTC. was good. i was like, totally paying attention til dawn disturbed me. how ironic, cos i always disturb people instead of dawn disturbing me. WAHAHA. then went for clown musical practise. it was a full dress rehearsal for all of us. we had to put on make-up & I TOTALLY DIDNT KNOW HOW TO PUT ON MAKE-UP. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. so, the people there helped me. i must say i looked quite nice. XB hurhurs. the rehearsal was quite cool. got nothing much to say as my brain is clearly not here. HURMPPPH.
sunday. well, let's just say i had a mental breakdown at night. cos, you know my weekend was TOTALLLLY filled up. i had to TOTALLY cram in my doin my homework AND doing my (somewhat irritatingly stupid) pulp fashion project. one statement: I WILL NEVER JOIN PROJECT RUNWAY. NEVEEER. THAT'S how bad the project went. i was all, "omg, I HATE LIFE." well, ish. except for church, cos...a) i get to see my crush there. (heeheeeees)b) i hardly have any worries when im in church-be it YLTC, CBSI or Faith Factor!!! c) life is betttter n church.therefore, i have established this. i long for a world where EVERYDAY, we can go to church & worship God. JUST DO THAT. i'd rather listen to sermon every single day than go to school & suffer the tortures of such lameass projects. church is WAY bettter. (i mean like, no offense to my friends ins chool, but like yeah, sometimes life gets SUPER COMPLICATED AND I JUST HATE IT BIG TIME.) it's like, in that world, we might as well STAY in church. pulp fashion is totally ugh. so much for me wanting to be a fashion designer. HUR-RUMPH.ok, fine so today is really tuesday now, cos i wasnt done with it yesterday.time now is 11:08am, tuesday, 11 july 2006.monday was horrid as well. i just realised that my piano playing skills are slowly disappearing. i also looked kinda weird inmy pulp fashion project-WTH. yeah, i have no more to say. my exam's coming soon & i cant even play my exam pieces properly. im waiting to fail. hurrah. WTH. i shall end here & stop bringing misery to you, dear readers. bell's rung. g'bye~
Written at 10:45 AM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
in school blogging
right so our whole class had a whole recess to ourselves yesterday. ISNT THAT WAY COOOOL? im totally happy with the set-up. its like, i was in the com lab all alone waiting for beiyi & niks to finish off their pizzas. WHAT'S MORE, WE ACTUALLY HAD 55 WHOLE FREAKING SCREAMING CRAZY MINUTES OF RECESS-rather than the usual 45---UH-HUH! UH-HUH! i was like, WAY over the moooon. until miss rosalie told this other girl in sec4 that she wanted 2/1 in the room. UGH, I MEAN, WHAT'S THE POINT OF A RECESS TO YOURSELF WHEN SOMEONE ELSE WANTS THE COM LAB FOR THEMSELF? yarrrggghhh. so i hadta leave and couldnt post at all. HURMPPPH. anyway, now im doing a bit of neopets. still to lazy to get to work on me blog skin. lols... oh and one more thing......HAUNTED WOODS WON THE ALTADOR CUP!!!!!
YAY! im SO happpyhappyhappppy. and yesterday, i actually managed to score 6 goals. how WAY COOL IS THAT? i was totally screamin my head off. it was totally rockin'. we won by like 33709 goals. way cool huh? im so glad altador lost the first round, then i realised my terrible mistake and changed to haunted woods-the team i was originally "paired" with. HURRAH! HURRAH! i just seriously hope that WE GET OUR OWN TROPHY-THAT'D BE totally cooool. anyway, im just glad that i dont have to "stress" about the altador cup now. Xd still got my 3 projects left-im WAY TOO LAZY to ask nicole to do the videos for chinese. oh wells.
anyway, i seriously need time management. at least i dont have any books to distract me now. but i feel kinda empty. sighhhh. yeah, this friday has CBSI & on saturday, im going for YLTC. i dunno what to expect, but i should think it'll be good. talking about CBSI, i still havent finished my homework. yarrrgh. i hate my lazy-ness. it sucks. ah well, life can never always be great.
ok, bell's rung, gotta go now.
Written at 11:16 AM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
wheeees
ok, so here i am back again to post on the same day. hopefully i can finish this ASAP. anyway, i totally wanted to post about the church camp, but like, i totally am SUPER LAZY so i probably wont post. ill just summarise it in 3 words & exclamation marks.CHURCH CAMP ROCKSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waha. told you it's 3 words. :)) anyway, i quite like reading people's blogs now. it's become quite a habit. ok fine, it's only cheryl's & desiree's. but hey, it's still considered reading. :D harhar. chatting with dawn now. apparently, she's "on bimbo mode" how weird. she still seems the usual mad ger to me. MUAHAHA. life is still mad. AND im still on HO-LI-DAY mode. how SAD. i really need ta get back in the swing of daily life especially since im...ahem....vice chairman this semester. must really stop "butting" my head into everything. i must totally remain unseen. quietly doin my job. that'd be better.
yeah, life is still crazy. at least the clown musical project is lotsa fun. it's good to get to know so many people from other churches. all different characters...yet so similar in some silly way. though i must say being the youngest in the altos is a bit sad. at least pamela's urm, easier to connect with. yeah. i TOTALLY cant wait for the combined full dress rehearsal on staurday. wondering if i should get me own mascara. the l'oreal volume shocker one. looks WAYYY cool. but, i really dunno. i mean $24.90...i could buy a Bratz doll with that..... totally unsure. also, they asked the choir members to put on our own make-up-i HAVE NO IDEA how to do that. im 14, the only make-up i use is lip gloss, and sometimes glitter eye-liner (and that normally sucks, so it's still kinda considered one) now, im crapping. ugh, wth. CONCENTRATE ANGELINE, CONCENTRATE. anyway, we still got 3 projects left. chinese, literature & history. chinese is almost done, lit we need to rehearse & history...*shudddders* we still have to edit the script & then rehearse. it totally sucks this year. i bet im gonna get really bad marks. havent been helping much. crapsticks. but i will 500% help with history. we need as much teamwork as possible to pull it off. lit as well, but it should be easier...
schoolwork is currently ok. we aint got that much homework now, but im slowly waiting for the build-up. the only thing "stressing" me now is D&T. you can tell im kinda stressing cos i keep putting it off in the usual angeline-lazy fashion. dumdeedum. i really wanna do it well, but the thing is i dunno how to do it. & in usual angeline-introvert fashion, i dare not ask the teacher. who has just got rid of his mole. HAHA. will stop staring at his bandages. hahahahahahahaha. ok, i wont be so mean, but HE'S SO VAIN. meargh. heehees. still cant get over church camp. rocks-o-mania. im like, WAY SO repeating myself. but i totally miss it now. the lovely memories hopefully will be stuck in my head. but anyway, im slowly & painsackingly jotting down AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE IN my diary + a few personal thoguht (coughcough) DONT bother asking. XB hehs. well yeah, ive begun to crap again meaning my attention is floating in angeline land as usual, so i will stop before i drive you, dear reader, wonkers. XD
byes~~~
Written at 11:34 PM
random outbursts
im sitting here in the com lab. we were supposed to do history but
a)my thumbdrive went missing [dont worry it's found now]
b)we have no file.
isnt that sad. anyway now im here flopping around neopets. TOTALLY missed out on half-price day. as in WTH. oh well, you cant ever have all the good things eh? anyway, it was like, SO depressing to read cheryl's blog just now. she's like stressed and all that. God be with her & help her to overcome everything without bursting out like a seriously mad volcano. which i ahem, sometimes burst out to my mum. it's like, ever since my bro went to Australia things went all wonky. ok, back to the present now.
like, after the june holidays ended, im like, SO distracted in blogging as you will notice in my previous post. sounds oh, so DISJOINTED. ladeeeeeela. im JUST as distracted. i must remember to do all my neopets dailies at home & then i can blog properly in school. hurmph. anyway (gets distracted) im currently in holiday mode still. it totally didnt help that yesterday was a holiday too. im so siaowed out that i dunno what else to write. super mad madness. lame. anyway, beiyi & nicole are dragging me away from this com now (but ruth's worser dont worry) more soon. tooooodles~
Written at 3:08 PM